Chapter 3

Everything has changed, mother always says that i am a bad boy and i never do anything right. she always says that i am a disappointment to the family. i feel ashamed, but i do not know what exactly i do wrong. she told me that she was holding me back in the first grade. i still can't figure out why. i always get smiley faces on my worksheets and i know my teacher likes me... but i guess i have to go by what mother says. she always beats me, and i cant lie it hurts so bad, i just try and keep my tears back that way she don't see that she is winning. i hate when father goes to work that's when mother changes, when father is home it is like old times but the moment he steps out the door she is back to beating me and making me look for items that have disappeared, i think she just likes the joy of making me do things for her, and when i do not do what she wants she will beat me. i forgot one time what she was having me look for and i went and asked her and she smacked me right in the face and said that i knew what i was looking for and i had to go find it... i will never forget the time when she broke my arm and lied to the doctor saying i fell off the bed.. i hate that she lies and gets away with everything. what kind of mother is that? she even lies to father.. why can't everything just go back to the old ways our family being happy... i hate it now, i want to be loved and happy.